How my fitness journey started

I remember when I first started my fitness journey...

I would go to my local gym and go straight to the cardio equipment area...

I remember feeling intimidated to even walk by the weight lifting section!

Everyone there looked so fit and looked so confident lifting heavy weights like it was nothing!

I thought to myself " Did they get that body from lifting weights!? How did they learn how to do it correctly!?

How can I be like them!?

And then my insecurities would creep in and tell me...

" Go do the elliptical or treadmill you need to burn your calories and it's the only machine you know how to do. "

And there I would go, to my " comfortable piece of equipment".

Not knowing if it was actually taking me closer to my goals or not, and hating every minute of it...

One day I decided I really wanted to learn how to lift weights so I hired a personal trainer, I thought that was going to be the solution to my problem!

But unfortunately, it wasn't...

He was this big, jacked, " only wore EXTREMELY tight shirts" type of guy that never smiled.

He immediately took me to the arm and leg machines, counted my reps, and then took me to the cardio room to finish off once again.

That was it. No explanation, no nothing.

He also told me that if my goal was to lose fat that I needed to start taking 3 different types of supplements, Fat burners, Pre-workouts, and BCAAs that he obviously sold...

After the first week of training with him, I was so bored and simply over the whole sit-down machine workout...

I could also sense his lack of empathy and interest towards my goals that made me even more unmotivated and even more insecure about learning how to lift weights!

Years later I met this guy, ( currently my boyfriend!)

He told me he owned a strength training gym and that I should come to try it out!

The negative thoughts came rushing to my head:

" NO WAY. You are not going to his gym and look pathetic trying to do exercises that you don't even know how to do.."

" He's gonna know that you're so out of shape he'll stop talking to you."

" You can't do it. That's not what you do."

" Working out has NEVER been your strong suit."

So I rejected his offer several times, months went by and FINALLY, I said OK I'll go try it out. I went to the session, I remember watching 40+ Year-old ladies lifting more weight than my body weight.

I was shocked and even more uncomfortable and intimidated. But that's when I made the decision.

If I wanted to be able to DO THAT. I HAD TO START DOING IT! No way around it!

So I did.

Every day was a major struggle, I realized how weak my body was, and that became MY SOURCE OF MOTIVATION.

That exercise that everyone else could do but not me,

that constant feeling of discomfort,